Have You Felt Depleted Lately? Psalm 79

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Even after the warnings, God’s people could hardly believe the great disaster that fell upon Jerusalem during the Babylonian Conquest in 597 BC.

In the aftermath of war, Psalm 79 expresses the people’s grief about what had been done and left undone in the form of a community lament.

How Long, O Lord?

1 O God, the nations have come into your inheritance; they have defiled your holy Temple; they have laid Jerusalem in ruins.

2 They have given the bodies of your servants to the birds of the heavens for food,
the flesh of your faithful to the beasts of the earth.

3 They have poured out their blood like water all around Jerusalem, and there was no one to bury them. (Psalm 79:1-3 ESV)

The city was left in ruins. The Temple was ransacked and destroyed. By the end of the siege, bodies lay in the streets with no one to bury them. The people’s inheritance, the promised land, was covered in their blood.

4 We have become a taunt to our neighbors, mocked and derided by those around us.

5 How long, O LORD? Will you be angry forever? Will your jealousy burn like fire?

6 Pour out your anger on the nations that do not know you, and on the kingdoms that do not call upon your name! (Psalm 79:4-6 ESV)

Shame filled their hearts as God’s people begged for mercy and began asking Him to turn His wrath onto those who denied God’s existence. They questioned how He could protect His reputation with their neighbors without rescuing and restoring them. Does God need such a reminder? Does He need to carefully guard His reputation with those who don’t even acknowledge Him?

7 For they have devoured Jacob and laid waste his habitation.

8 Do not remember against us our former iniquities; let your compassion come speedily to meet us, for we are brought very low. (Psalm 79:7-8 ESV)

How often have we failed to take a complete inventory of my sins? Do we regularly take time for confession, or do we wish to jump ahead to God’s compassionate response? Do we demand His quickest mercy so we can get to the forgiveness part more efficiently?

 9 Help us, O God of our salvation, for the glory of your name; deliver us, and atone for our sins, for your name's sake!

10 Why should the nations say, "Where is their God?" Let the avenging of the outpoured blood of your servants be known among the nations before our eyes!

11 Let the groans of the prisoners come before you; according to your great power, preserve those doomed to die! (Psalm 79:9-11 ESV)

God’s people begged for compassion, forgiveness, and help. Desperation drove the urgency of their pleading. Finally, however, they acknowledged their sins needed atonement, and since the Temple was in ruins, they couldn’t go and make sacrifices. Only God can provide for these prisoners. 

They were once again quick to remind God to protect His reputation. Does God need such reminders? How often have we been so quick to point out how unfair we consider something to be? Does the God of the universe grow weary of our limited view and hasty judgments?

12 Return sevenfold into the lap of our neighbors the taunts with which they have taunted you, O Lord! (Psalm 79:12 ESV)

God’s people also demanded vengeance (seven-fold) on their neighbors who taunted God. Does God need us to point out when others disrespect Him? Did He miss it by any chance? It seems unlikely. His endless patience with our need to keep score is yet another grace.

13 But we your people, the sheep of your pasture, will give thanks to you forever; from generation to generation, we will recount your praise. (Psalm 79:13 ESV)

Finally, in Verse 13, God’s people gain a proper perspective. They acknowledge their need for their one true Shepherd and pledge their thanksgiving for now and forever to the next generation.

As God’s people, we desperately need to spend time with our Good Shepherd. Expressing lament to God draws us closer to Him and brings healing to our souls. Most of us have not had our homeland destroyed, but smaller losses pile upon significant losses and chip away at our souls, leaving us desperate and depleted.

Lament is a necessary step in healing from the inside out. The healing balm of God’s presence brings about an abundant crop of gratitude. After all, we are charged with an essential responsibility to help our children and grandchildren to inherit a thankful and praise-filled attitude from us. Can I afford to take a few minutes to practice lament today?

How Can I Pray for the President? Psalm 2

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Sitting in the pew on a recent Sunday morning at church, we arrived at the part of the service in the Anglican tradition where we pray for the “whole state of Christ’s church and the world.” This rhythm remains the same week after week as the congregation moves through concentric circles of influence in our lives. First, we pray for the universal church and then by name for governmental officials, leaders in our denomination, leaders in the local congregation, and people who are ill.  

A Call and Response

The style of prayer, designed as a call and response, engages the entire congregation. The leader cues up the prayer by reading it, adding the phrase, “in your mercy.” Then the congregation answers by saying, “Hear our prayers.”

O Lord our Governor, whose glory fills all the world: We commend this Nation to your merciful care, that we may be guided by your providence, and dwell secure in your peace. Grant to the President of this Nation, the Governor of this State, and to all in authority, wisdom and strength to know and to do your will. Fill them with the love of truth and righteousness, and make them continually mindful of their calling to serve this people in reverent obedience to you; through Jesus Christ our Lord, who lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit, one God, world without end.

ACNA BCP 2019 p. 657 “For the President and All Civil Authority”

This prayer and many others weave into the service as a fixed part of the liturgy for churches nationwide. On any given Sunday, congregations from sea to shining sea bombard the heavenly realms with petitions for leaders. People with wildly divergent political views bow their heads and join hands to pray together.

How Can I Pray for a President I Disagree with?

And yet, I was thinking, how can I pray for a president I disagree with or a governor who might not govern how I believe he or she should? How can I pray for an unbelieving government official to “know and do Your will,” God?

A look at Psalm 2, titled “The Reign of the Lord’s Anointed,” sheds some light on this struggle.

1 Why do the nations rage and the peoples plot in vain?
2 The kings of the earth set themselves, and the rulers take counsel together, against the Lord and against his Anointed, saying,
3 "Let us burst their bonds apart and cast away their cords from us."
(Psalm 2:1-3 ESV)

Captivity of Chaos

These words, penned many years ago and miles away from here, bring comfort because I hear about how the psalmist observed a similar situation to mine. Then, the nations raged, the rulers took counsel against the Lord, and the people felt as if they were being held captive by all the chaos.

Same. Those words sum up current events rather well. However, the psalmist also observes the following.

4 He who sits in the heavens laughs; the Lord holds them in derision.
5 Then he will speak to them in his wrath, and terrify them in his fury, saying,
6 "As for me, I have set my King on Zion, my holy hill."
(Psalm 2:4-6 ESV)

On His Throne

Is the Lord still on His heavenly throne?

Yes, and He must laugh at some of our leaders sometimes.  

7 I will tell of the decree: The Lord said to me, "You are my Son; today I have begotten you.
8 Ask of me, and I will make the nations your heritage, and the ends of the earth your possession.
9 You shall break them with a rod of iron and dash them in pieces like a potter's vessel." 
(Psalm 2:7-9 ESV)

Promises Trumpeted

These words trumpet the promise of the Lord that the line of David will go on forever. King Jesus, David’s descendant, rules in the now and not yet. Every day on this planet, believers glimpse the Kingdom of God breaking out. However, the fullness of this promise has yet to be ultimately revealed.

In the meantime, God uses governmental leaders to fulfill His purposes. There are examples of this throughout scripture. One comes to my mind from the book of Esther. A pagan leader, King Xerxes, helps save the Jewish people from total annihilation. “The king’s heart is a stream of water in the hand of the Lord; he turns it wherever he will.” (Proverbs 21:1 ESV)

Warning

Psalm 2 closes with a warning.

10 Now, therefore, O kings, be wise; be warned, O rulers of the earth.
11 Serve the Lord with fear, and rejoice with trembling.
12 Kiss the Son, lest he be angry, and you perish in the way, for his wrath is quickly kindled.
Blessed are all who take refuge in him.
(Psalm 2:10-12 ESV)

Kiss the Son

In His kindness, God offers some solid advice to all leaders. “Kiss the Son.” Worship Jesus. The time to repent and seek Him is now because His wrath will be unleashed at the time of His return.

At the second coming, every knee will bow in adoration for the Son, also known as Jesus.

God also encourages believers to take refuge in Him in the meantime. The world will continue to rage and storm, but we know the ending. We can sleep amid the storm because we know who is at the helm of our ship.

What am I called to do?

How can we “burst their bonds apart and cast away their cords from us”? (Psalm 2:3 ESV)

Pray

Pray for our leaders. Use the words of the prayer above or pray using the psalms as a prompt. Pray using your own words or the prayers found in various prayer books. Pray for our leaders because they need it; the practice brings freedom to each of us. As I pray for particular leaders, I relinquish fear or apprehension about what might happen next. The bonds of anxiety fall away, and the cords of my complaining loosen their grip on my heart.

Grief in the Heart of Texas – Psalm 112

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Deep in the heart of Texas, there have been so many tears. Imagine the heartbreak of parents who lost their babies and students who lost their teachers in a school shooting in Uvalde. A small community decimated by evil. The grief is heavy.

A week later, the news broke that an escaped convict brutally murdered a grandfather named Mark Collins and his four grandsons. About a decade before me, this man went to my high school and lived a few miles away from me. His grandsons also lived locally. Although we never knew each other, I couldn’t help but notice how many mutual friends we have.

Watching believers, like the Collins family, grieve the most significant loss of their lives challenges all of us who claim the name of Jesus’ followers. Can we follow Him into the darkest valley when we mourn these losses? Are we willing to go near to suffering without offering pointless platitudes to create a comfortable distance?

A Wisdom Psalm

Psalm 112, part of the wisdom collection of psalms, offers guidance on how our lives should be a marked contrast to those who don’t claim our faith. 

In light of these tragedies, feeling so close and raw, would my life reflect a difference in a time of profound grief the way the Collins Family has demonstrated? Walk through this psalm, verse by verse, and watch for the Holy Spirit to bring what He has for each of us to mind.

1 Praise the Lord! Blessed is the man who fears the Lord, who greatly delights in his commandments! (Psalm 112:1 ESV)

Does my life reflect respectful obedience to God’s commandments? Am I focused on following the commandments or busy looking for loopholes?

2 His offspring will be mighty in the land; the generation of the upright will be blessed. (Psalm 112:2 ESV)

What is my relationship like with those closest to me? Do my family members see the fruits of the Holy Spirit in me when no one else is around? Do I seek to be a blessing to my children and grandchildren?

3 Wealth and riches are in his house, and his righteousness endures forever. (Psalm 112:3 ESV)

How do I manage what God has entrusted to me? Is fear or faith my rudder?

4 Light dawns in the darkness for the upright; he is gracious, merciful, and righteous. (Psalm 112:4 ESV)

Do I seek God’s light to show me His ways and behaviors in dark seasons? Am I living as an image of His grace, mercy, and righteousness? As times get darker, can the reflection of Christ grow brighter?

5 It is well with the man who deals generously and lends; who conducts his affairs with justice. (Psalm 112:5 ESV)

Am I a kind and generous giver? Do I keep my hands open, or do I grab onto anything I receive? Am I storing up treasures that I don’t need? Does my life show one who tries to live above and beyond the minimum requirement to follow the law?

6 For the righteous will never be moved; he will be remembered forever. (Psalm 112:6 ESV)

Can I stand for what is right and speak out about what is true? Can I trust God for the results and not depend on earthly affirmations?

7 He is not afraid of bad news; his heart is firm, trusting in the Lord. (Psalm 112:7 ESV)

Can I hold company with peace when sad reports come my way? On this side of heaven, there will be more days of loss and violence. We live in a broken world. Will my heart be so saturated by the truth of God’s word that trust flows out abundantly?

8 His heart is steady; he will not be afraid until he looks in triumph on his adversaries. (Psalm 112:8 ESV)

Can I remain steadfast? Can I avoid allowing fear to bully me into regret? Fear has gained a solid foothold in recent years. What is an antidote? One way to counter fear’s narrative is to tell the story of God’s generosity in our lives.

9 He has distributed freely; he has given to the poor; his righteousness endures forever; his horn is exalted in honor. (Psalm 112:9 ESV)

Can I remember in seasons of scarcity that all I have is a gift from God? Can I release all I have stored up without holding back because I know He will provide again and again for me? God is generous, and he calls me to the same.

10 The wicked man sees it and is angry; he gnashes his teeth and melts away; the desire of the wicked will perish! (Psalm 112:10 ESV)

This verse was the one that grabbed my heart. Do all the wicked people’s desires perish? At the moment, it doesn’t seem that way. Instead, it feels like the wicked won.

Can I trust you, Lord, to right the wrongs, bring justice, and settle all accounts? Can you strengthen me to love harder and show mercy in a world where the wicked sometimes win temporary battles? Help me to know that you won the war.

I read the obituary of one of the little boys who perished with his grandfather. He had been baptized just over a year ago.

“On June 2nd, 2022, Bryson Duncan Collins ran into the arms of Jesus at the age of 11.”

Prayer

Lord, may this be said of each of us. So then, when wickedness comes our way, may we all run into the arms of Jesus. . And it is in His precious name we pray, Amen.

What Does a Church’s Birthday Look Like? Psalm 68: 19-35

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In June of 2021, my husband, an Anglican priest, and I left a church where we had served for decades to answer the call to plant a church. Stepping out and into a new season felt like jumping onto a fast-moving train, not knowing the destination. We were leaving behind close friends and a supportive team with no idea where we were going.

The first stop on our brand-new journey was Katy, Texas, just over an hour from our home in Conroe. The Gathering (a church that will soon meet in Richmond) welcomed us with open arms, and we spent ten months there learning so much. The Lord blessed us there with time spent with my niece and nephew and their sweet families. My husband and I racked up many hours on the road praying, listening to podcasts, and talking during our 4-5 hour commute each week for services and small group meetings.

In God’s fantastic way, He surprised us one Sunday afternoon as we went to deliver a meal to a family who had just welcomed their third child. This sweet minister’s wife welcomed my husband and me into her home, and we sat and visited for a few minutes while the newborn slept, and her older kiddos watched a video in another room. Tucked into this conversation, we found a massive surprise. She and her husband had also been discerning a call to church planting. So not only were they praying about church planting, they both felt a clear call to Conroe and planned to move there soon.

We sensed a call to plant a church in Conroe ten years earlier. However, after receiving the initial message, the Lord closed that door and moved us into a different season of ministry in a neighboring area. It was a dream we had both released and almost forgotten about until that Sunday afternoon.

One week later, we sat in a restaurant and began to dream together about planting a church with this family in Conroe. Not only did we share a passion for planting, but we also shared a passion for Mexican food. Clearly, this is a vital sign of the ability to work together well! As we looked at a map of the area, we discovered we shared a passion for the same part of town.

Sometimes the Holy Spirit moves into a place or a situation, and suddenly everything changes. On the first Pentecost Sunday, the disciples must have also felt the shift from uncertainty and doubt to clarity and purpose. A fresh wave of the Holy Spirit gave them the ability to communicate the Gospel in new ways to build up those early church plants. The shared experience bonded them.

Years from now, we will say the same about our church planting adventure because it began with a divinely orchestrated visit with a fellow minister’s family. One Holy Spirit-inspired conversation led to a cascade of God’s provision even to this day. Some people call Pentecost the church’s birthday because that event led to the birth of so many churches all around the world. It is very exciting to witness this church’s birthday from a front-row seat.

Our fledgling church in Conroe has been meeting now as house churches for months, and we are looking to begin hosting preview services very soon. We now have an official name, All Saints Anglican. We even have a ministry partner, Compassion United, providing us with a Sunday morning meeting space. Only God could have done all this! Psalm 68 provides a great way to thank the Lord for all He is doing in this season. (We examined the first half of this Psalm last week on the blog.) https://antheakotlan.com/2022/06/01/what-happened-on-pentecost/

19 Blessed be the Lord, who daily bears us up; God is our salvation.  Selah 
20 Our God is a God of salvation, and to God, the Lord, belong deliverances from death. 
21 But God will strike the heads of his enemies, the hairy crown of him who walks in his guilty ways. 
22 The Lord said, "I will bring them back from Bashan, I will bring them back from the depths of the sea, 
23 that you may strike your feet in their blood, that the tongues of your dogs may have their portion from the foe." 
24 Your procession is seen, O God, the procession of my God, my King, into the sanctuary—  
25 the singers in front, the musicians last, between them virgins playing tambourines: 
26 "Bless God in the great congregation, the Lord, O you who are of Israel's fountain!" 
27 There is Benjamin, the least of them, in the lead, the princes of Judah in their throng, the princes of Zebulun, the princes of Naphtali.  
(Psalm 68:19-27 ESV)

Verses 19, 20, 21, and 22 speak of God as the one who rescues and saves. He is also an advocate who will defend his people from their enemies. Finally, verses 25 and 26 underline the need to come together, share testimonies of God’s actions, and sing praises. God designed us for corporate worship, and we gain strength from being together in His presence. This truth spurs us on in our church planting journey.

From time to time, I miss out on attending in-person church services. These verses serve as a great reminder to me to prioritize gathering with fellow believers. Being able to participate in church online for medical reasons is one thing, but settling into the pattern of passive participation might cause me to miss out on being part of the body of Christ.  

28 Summon your power, O God, the power, O God, by which you have worked for us. 
29 Because of your temple at Jerusalem kings shall bear gifts to you. 
30 Rebuke the beasts that dwell among the reeds, the herd of bulls with the calves of the peoples. Trample underfoot those who lust after tribute; scatter the peoples who delight in war. 
31 Nobles shall come from Egypt; Cush shall hasten to stretch out her hands to God. 
32 O kingdoms of the Earth, sing to God; sing praises to the Lord, Selah 
33 to him who rides in the heavens, the ancient heavens; behold, he sends out his voice, his mighty voice. 
34 Ascribe power to God, whose majesty is over Israel, and whose power is in the skies. 
35 Awesome is God from his sanctuary; the God of Israel—he is the one who gives power and strength to his people. 
Blessed be God! 
(Psalm 68:28-35 ESV)

Verses 31 and 32 prophesy about the day of Pentecost when the Holy Spirit reversed the Tower of Babel curse. Hearing the Gospel in each person’s mother tongue initiates a praise response. The final three verses of the Psalm continue the theme of praise. God’s power is acknowledged, as is the power He shares to give strength to His people.  

When the Holy Spirit fills God’s people, resurrection power flows forth. Vibrant growth and supernatural strength follow. Hopelessness and desperation depart as abundance flows forth. Holy Spirit continues His work even to this very day, and we have seen so much evidence of that in our church planting journey.

Prayer

Thank you, God, for Your supernatural power revealed at Pentecost and how you send fresh waves of the Holy Spirit to transform us every day. We long to be in step with Your Spirit.   Thank you for all you are doing to provide for our church plant. Guide All Saints Conroe to continue to seek You, Lord. Give us eyes to see, ears to hear, and a heart to draw near the Holy Spirit’s movements. In Jesus’ name, Amen. 

What Happened on Pentecost? Psalm 68:1-18

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Just before Jesus was taken up into Heaven on the day of the Ascension, He promised to send a comforter, guide, and teacher to help His followers. He could see the challenges they would face, and He knew what they would need.  

“But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit has come upon you, and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem and in all of Judea and Samaria, and to the end of the earth.”  (Acts 1:8-9 ESV)

Ten days later 120 people, including the disciples, gathered to celebrate the Feast of Weeks. Acts chapter 2 says there was a sound like the wind filling the whole building. The people responded by speaking different languages as the Holy Spirit prompted them. A spontaneous party of praise broke out and many were amazed by the mighty works of God.

On this day, the Spirit reversed the Tower of Babel (Genesis 11:1-9). At the tower, God confused the language of the people so they could not fulfill their selfish ambition. However, on Pentecost, he gave language to his people so that their mission of redemption might be fulfilled. 

Fr. Thomas McKenzie – The Anglican Way: A Guide Book 

On Sunday (June 5, 2022), churches worldwide will celebrate this unique visit of the Holy Spirit on the day known as Pentecost. Every believer now has access to the Holy Spirit at all times and in all places. This day marks a significant celebration, and some people even call it the church’s birthday.  

Had the Holy Spirit existed before this time?  

In the Old Testament, the Spirit appears and works in mysterious ways to fulfill God’s purposes on many occasions. However, the Holy Spirit in the Old Testament comes and goes. It was not available in the same way as it is to us today. Pentecost marks the time when the Spirit came in a new and powerful way.

Psalm 68 commemorates the moving of the ark into the tabernacle. When God’s people had the ark, they saw the working of the Spirit because God’s presence occupied the ark and dwelt among the people. King David, who penned these verses, rejoices in God’s homecoming to Zion in every line of this celebratory psalm. A careful reading of each verse reveals many ways this psalm points to the Ascension and then Pentecost. Some churches may even use this in the service liturgy this Sunday.  

1 God shall arise, his enemies shall be scattered, and those who hate him shall flee before him! 
2 As smoke is driven away, so you shall drive them away; as wax melts before fire, so the wicked shall perish before God! 
3 But the righteous shall be glad; they shall exult before God; they shall be jubilant with joy! 
4 Sing to God, sing praises to his name; lift up a song to him who rides through the deserts; his name is the Lord; exult before him! 
5 Father of the fatherless and protector of widows is God in his holy habitation. 
6 God settles the solitary in a home; he leads out the prisoners to prosperity, but the rebellious dwell in a parched land. 
7 O God, when you went out before your people, when you marched through the wilderness,  
Selah 
8 the earth quaked, the heavens poured down rain, before God, the One of Sinai, before God, the God of Israel. 
9 Rain in abundance, O God, you shed abroad; you restored your inheritance as it languished; 
10 your flock found a dwelling in it; in your goodness, O God, you provided for the needy. 
(Psalm 68: 1-10 ESV)

David gives thanks and praise to God in verses 3 and 4. Then verse 5 shows God leading the people into rest and safety. That theme continues in verses 7-10. In verse 9, the psalmist remarks on how the restoration has come to this land with abundant rain. In verse 6, the psalmist thanks God, who gives us victory over sin & sets the captives free.  

Reading these first ten verses reminds me of God’s care for my family and me. It reminds me to follow God’s lead into the rest of the safety of His presence. What an amazing provision God makes for me to experience refreshment if only I will take it.

11 The Lord gives the word; the women who announce the news are a great host: 
12 "The kings of the armies—they flee, they flee!" The women at home divide the spoil— 
13 though you men lie among the sheepfolds—the wings of a dove covered with silver, 
    its pinions with shimmering gold. 
14 When the Almighty scatters kings there, let snow fall on Zalmon. 
15 O mountain of God, mountain of Bashan; O many-peaked mountain, mountain of Bashan! 
16 Why do you look with hatred, O many-peaked mountain, at the mount that God desired for his abode, yes, where the Lord will dwell forever? 
17 The chariots of God are twice ten thousand, thousands upon thousands; the Lord is among them; Sinai is now in the sanctuary. 
18 You ascended on high, leading a host of captives in your train and receiving gifts among men, even among the rebellious, that the Lord God may dwell there. 
(Psalm 68:11-18 ESV)

In verse 11, God highlights women who trumpet good news of God’s victories with His people. Again, in verses 14 and 17, God is like a shepherd who guides His people into safety and rest. God repeats this theme of leading His people into rest because He knows so many of us will struggle with that. His firm hand might be the only way some of us will lie down. Finally, verse 18 speaks about Jesus’s Ascension and the day of Pentecost, pointing to how God will equip His people with unique giftings to serve the body of Christ. Each is given what is needed to spread the Gospel to the ends of the Earth.  

This section of verses reminds me of how God has uniquely gifted me and everyone with gifts to build His kingdom. Just as God gave special language skills to expand His kingdom, what other gifts has He given me for kingdom assignments? How about you?

Celebrating Pentecost provides an amazing opportunity to be reminded of the essential work of the Holy Spirit. How have I seen the Spirit working lately? I believe He is always at work all around me, but far too often I miss His movement if I don’t pay attention.

As we prepare our hearts and minds to remember Pentecost, join me in praying this prayer from The Book of Common Prayer 2019.

O God, who on this day taught the hearts of the faithful people by sending to them the light of your Holy Spirit: Grant us by the same Spirit to have a right judgement in all things, and evermore to rejoice in his holy comfort; through Jesus Christ your Son our Lord, who lives and reigns with you, in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. Amen

The Book of Common Prayer 2019, page 614

Join me next week for the second half of Psalm 68 and to learn more about the work of the Holy Spirit amongst God’s people.

Why Does God Call Me To Look Up? Psalm 8

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At regular intervals, and sometimes entirely by surprise, God paints the sky with impressive displays of his handiwork. While every night sky, sunrise, sunset, a sea of blue, or cloud formation reveals beauty, some of God’s artwork stuns me. A recent lunar eclipse reminded me of how God can and will disrupt the regular cycles He set in place in the beginning. The sun or moon can stand still or disappear for a moment. To witness unique artistry, all I have to do is look up into the sky and watch the Lord of the universe remind me of His power and might.

Have you ever noticed humans are designed to look skyward, unlike animals who primarily look down?

Watching the skies provides weather warnings, navigational information, and ways to track the passing of time. But do I get so caught up with my devices tethered below that I miss out on what God is showing me above?

On Ascension Day (Thursday, May 25, 2022, and the following Sunday), forty days after Easter, Jesus’ ministry on earth came full circle as God’s people were looking at the sky. When Jesus was born, there was a beckoning star guiding those who sought Him. The gospels explain that after leading his disciples out of Jerusalem to Bethany, He lifted his hands and blessed them. After that, he issued his final assignment, and then He was taken up into Heaven, leaving His followers looking skyward.

In Psalm 8, the psalmist is also looking at the heavens. Reading and praying through each verse provides some needed focus and encouragement in preparing my heart to remember the ascension.

1 O Lord, our Lord, how majestic is your name in all the earth! You have set your glory above the heavens. 
Psalm 8:1 ESV

Thank you, Lord, for your generosity in making your love writ large across the skies. You don’t want anyone to miss Your message. As I gaze upward, I am in awe of You.

2     Out of the mouth of babies and infants, you have established strength because of your foes, to still the enemy and the avenger. Psalm 8:2 ESV

Lord, I am amazed by how You use the mouths of those in our society (babies and infants) who might be dismissed because they are small or needy. Yet, their voices praise You, and You continue to send more babies to earth as blessings every day. While we as humans might believe we can control their arrivals, You make it clear that you specialize in the unexpected.

3 When I look at your heavens, the work of your fingers, the moon and the stars, which you have set in place, 

4 what is man that you are mindful of him, and the son of man that you care for him? 
Psalm 8:3-4 ESV

Looking at the night sky and trying to count the stars is a way I can see how small I am and how vast the hand is of the one who painted those night skies must be. And yet, You hear my cries, and You respond to my requests.

5 Yet you have made him a little lower than the heavenly beings and crowned him with glory and honor. Psalm 8:5 ESV

Out of your grace, You gave me Jesus. He has walked on earth and had every struggle I might ever encounter.

6 You have given him dominion over the works of your hands; you have put all things under his feet, 

7 all sheep and oxen, and also the beasts of the field, 

8 the birds of the heavens, and the fish of the sea, whatever passes along the paths of the seas. 
Psalm 8:6-8 ESV

Out of Your abundant generosity, You gave Jesus authority over everything. As a result, Jesus can transform my unruly heart. My limited understanding can be enhanced by Him and all my limitations. Yet, he knows and sees and loves me anyway.

9 O Lord, our Lord, how majestic is your name in all the earth! Psalm 9:9 ESV

Today, I look skyward and praise You for all You are, all You have done, and all You will continue to do. I am blessed when I look up. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

Can I Be Rescued from the Quicksand of Anxiety? Psalm 40:11-17

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Quicksand appeared in more than one television show when I was a child in the 60s and 70s. It served as a frequent plot twist. Many a heroic figure found him or herself sinking deeper and deeper. Or sometimes, the hero would discover someone else descending into danger. Whichever scenario unfolded, there were often guidelines given.  

  • Do not struggle. Less you will sink further down and perish.  
  • Save your energy.  
  • Just relax. 

An entire generation of my peers trained in thinking through a plan of action to handle quicksand. However, decades later, when I fall into the quicksand of anxiety, all those plans go awry.  

Anxiety lays in wait 

Anxiety is stealthy and sneaky. I am moseying down the path of life when suddenly, a trigger opens up a pit of quicksand. I HAVE FALLEN before I know it, and I can’t get out. Time slows and speeds up in cycles as I try to escape. The “miry bog” (Psalm 40:2 ESV) encloses me, and I am overwhelmed.  

A well-meaning friend or family member stands on the firm ground calling out helpful tips and questions.

  • “Keep your head up, now. It’s not that bad.” 
  • “Don’t struggle. You will only make it worse.”  
  • “Why did you go this way? Why weren’t you looking out for the pit?” 
  • “Your life is so awesome. How could you struggle?”  

Anxiety puts the nervous system into fight or flight mode. As the heart rate increases, the mind becomes scrambled and unfocused. Panic descends. The next step beyond this point might be a place of becoming despondent and losing all hope – a pit perspective.  

Psalm 40  

In the second half of Psalm 40, the psalmist seems to cycle back into a desperate need for God’s mercy in the bottom of a pit. (See this link for the first half of Psalm 40 post. https://antheakotlan.com/2022/05/11/have-you-ever-fallen-into-a-pit/ 

11 As for you, O Lord, you will not restrain your mercy from me; your steadfast love and your faithfulness will ever preserve me!  
Psalm 40:11 ESV

The psalmist speaks truth over his dire situation. He loudly declares the truth about God’s mercy, steadfast love, and faithfulness. Speaking truth over my times in the pit of anxiety can help me regain a healthier perspective. However, sometimes the cycle is tough to break.  

12 For evils have encompassed me beyond number; my iniquities have overtaken me, and I cannot see;  
they are more than the hairs of my head; my heart fails me.  
Psalm 40:12 ESV

Like me, no sooner did the psalmist get a foothold than he falls back down into the despair of feeling surrounded by external evil and his failings. He says, and I have often felt, “I cannot see…” But unfortunately, the view from the bottom of the pit of anxiety is minimal. The quicksand has sucked me down, and there appears to be no way out.  

A “try harder response,” something I relied on for years, fails amid the quicksand of anxiety. But struggling against it does suck me down further and further.  

13 Be pleased, O Lord, to deliver me! O Lord, make haste to help me!  
Psalm 40:13 ESV

Like the psalmist, I cry out to God at my lowest points. I beg for deliverance and demand it be on my timeline. Panic drives desperation to the point of frenzy. The idea of telling the Lord of the universe to rescue me and be quick about it seems absurd in the cold light of day. But in the pit of anxiety, I can’t see any way I can survive even a few more minutes. Desperation washes over me in a cold sweat.  
 

14 Let those be put to shame and disappointed altogether who seek to snatch away my life; let those be turned back and brought to dishonor who delight in my hurt!  

15 Let those be appalled because of their shame who say to me, "Aha, Aha!"

Just when it cannot seem to get any worse, it might. The well-meaning passerby suggests I need to try some essential oils or a great new supplement. While, unlike the psalmist, I may not be looking for revenge, I do wish those helpful suggester types would be willing to sit with suffering sometimes. Could you just take a beat oh helpful one?  

Here’s the awkward truth. How often have I been the one standing on the firm ground calling out to a quicksand victim? “Have you tried focusing on the positive? How about a little song?”  

How does God call me to sit with suffering when my loved ones strugggle?

Perhaps, I should be quicker to pray and slower to offer advice? Perhaps be willing to practice being fully present and allowing someone in her time of crisis to feel seen and heard?  

16 But may all who seek you rejoice and be glad in you; may those who love your salvation say continually, "Great is the Lord!"   
Psalm 40:16 ESV

Rejoicing while visiting the pit is not my usual reaction. I prefer a lament. I believe there is time for that too. (Follow this link to learn more about the spiritual discipline of lament. https://antheakotlan.com/2022/02/23/leaving-and-lament/

The psalmist suggests an offering of rejoicing. Somehow this rejoicing could be even more potent if done corporately. Sometimes I need someone else to begin the chorus of rejoicing before I can.  

Rejoice in God’s Greatness  

Who can rejoice? Those who have all the answers? Those who feel like it? Those who aren’t caught up in the quicksand of anxiety? The psalmist in verse 16 reminds me how those who seek God rejoice and be glad. Not because of where they are you are or what they have, but because of who we belong to. Because of the salvation the Lord has provided, I can rejoice. He is excellent, even when I fail, even when I fall, even when I can’t see it.  

17 As for me, I am poor and needy, but the Lord takes thought for me. You are my help and my deliverer; do not delay, O my God!  (Psalm 40:17 ESV)

Finally, Verse 17 reminds me that while I am poor and needy, I am also thought of by God. The God of the entire universe thinks of me. He also thinks of you. He is even willing to help and deliver us. Like the psalmist, I love asking the Lord to hurry up and not delay. Waiting does not come naturally to me. People, we have a schedule to maintain.  

God’s Rescue  

However, God’s timing is perfect. His rescue will be right on time. Perhaps He never intended for me to pull myself out of the pit? While our culture calls us to consider such techniques, departing from the pit cannot be done alone. If only I could wait for the Lord to place my feet on the rock. He will make my steps so much more secure than I could with all of my efforts (Psalm 40:2 &3). His loving-kindness and mercy will indeed cause me to sing a new song.  

Prayer 

Dear Lord, 

When I am in the pit of anxiety let me cry out to you. You are never bothered by me, but You delight in hearing from your daughter. Thank you for thinking of me and rescuing me in your perfect timing. While I wait, I will trust Your timing. I will give thanks in advance for the future solid rock location I will occupy soon. I will choose to rejoice. I will deeply breathe in the truth I find in your word. I will exhale the doubts and the frustrations. In Jesus’ name. Amen 

Have You Ever Fallen into a Pit? Psalm 40:1-10

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Pray the promise, not the problem. 

Carlos Whittaker
1 I waited patiently for the Lord; he inclined to me and heard my cry. 

2 He drew me up from the pit of destruction, out of the miry bog, and set my feet upon a rock, making my steps secure. 
Psalm 40:1-2 ESV

The first two verses of Psalm 40 tell a story of redemption. At first glance, it might appear to be a story of a one-time event.  

Have you ever fallen into a pit?  

I have. I have fallen headlong into a pit through my choices and foolishness. Not just once, I might add. If pit falling got added to the Olympics, I might win a medal. Pit falling limits my ability to solve problems or gain a fresh perspective. The view from the bottom of a pit is bleak.  

At the bottom of a pit, I become hyper-fixated on all the problems. I examine the pit walls for footholds so that I can climb out. If the walls prove too slippery due to all that mire, I try ordering some climbing shoes from Amazon. The kind with tiny spikes. Amazon prime tries to solve so many of my problems.  

Other times I have called a friend to tell her about the pit. I treat it like a newscast –live from the pit with Anthea. Meanwhile, I’m googling to find out all about the rocks in the pit. Is there freshwater? What about pit snacks? What is the pit schedule? Do they need tour guides?  

I LOOK DOWN when I focus on the pit (my problems). As Carlos Whittaker wisely suggests, I need to refocus on God’s promises found in the Psalms. In Psalm 40, the psalmist gives thanks for God’s ongoing faithfulness.  

1 I waited patiently for the Lord; he inclined to me and heard my cry. 
Psalm 40:1 ESV

Thank you, God, for hearing me when I pray and cry. Lord, you listen to me, but you turn towards me when I call. Knowing I am seen and heard by You makes whatever I suffer somehow bearable. Help me to wait patiently for You. Your response time is always right on schedule.  

2 He drew me up from the pit of destruction, out of the miry bog, and set my feet upon a rock, making my steps secure. 
Psalm 40:2 ESV

God, You rescued me from the pit. You lifted me and put me on the solid ground of Your provision. Today, I give thanks for this, and I give thanks for no pit being too deep or too miry for You. Even when I am a muddy mess, You love me and will come for me. You place my feet on the firm ground of Your provision. Your plans provide a strong foundation in times of uncertainty. You see and know exactly where I need to be.  

3 He put a new song in my mouth, a song of praise to our God. Many will see and fear, and put their trust in the Lord. 
Psalm 40:3 ESV

Thank you, Lord, for the gift of new songs of praise. Songs never heard before. These unique and remarkable songs stir hearts to turn toward You.  

4 Blessed is the man who makes the Lord his trust, who does not turn to the proud, to those who go astray after a lie! 
Psalm 40:4 ESV

Thank you for blessing me whenever I trust You. When I turn to You and not to those with clever worldly solutions, protected from deception, blessings pour forth when I am close to You.

5 You have multiplied, O Lord my God, your wondrous deeds and thoughts toward us; none can compare with you! I will proclaim and tell of them, yet they are more than told. 
Psalm 40:5 ESV

Lord, expand my ability and influence to share about you with everyone. Shape my words into a bold testimony pointing to You.  

6 In sacrifice and offering you have not delighted, but you have given me an open ear. Burnt offering and sin offering you have not required. 

7 Then I said, "Behold, I have come; in the scroll of the book it is written of me: 

8 I delight to do your will, O my God; your law is within my heart." 
Psalm 40:6-8 ESV

Thank you, Lord, for Jesus’ death on the cross because it set me free from making endless burnt offerings and sin offerings. Help me to walk daily in gratitude for the freedom this provides.  

Help me to delight in obedience and doing Your will. Let me never grow tired of following the guidance you give abundantly. Help me to take into my heart Your laws. Cause me to love what you love and hate what You despise.  
 

9 I have told the glad news of deliverance in the great congregation; behold, I have not restrained my lips, as you know, O Lord. 

10 I have not hidden your deliverance within my heart; I have spoken of your faithfulness and your salvation; I have not concealed your steadfast love and your faithfulness from the great congregation. 
Psalm 40:9-10 ESV

Thank you for every opportunity I have to seek you first and speak about your deeds. May my life be writ large with words and actions proving who You are. Help me to value the gathering of Your people and be faithful in the church you call me to.  

Prayer

God, you are faithful even in the pit. When I climbed in there myself, you still rescued me. You come when I cry to you because you are full of mercy and grace.  

YOU RESCUE ME when I can’t see the ending of a season of suffering. You come and keep company with me and help me go on.  

When my friend or family member walks through the valley of death, you rescue them and me. Not always in the ways, I prayed, but you always do.  

When I am trapped in the pit of despair, you come and sit with me until I see you again.  

I will sing a new song today because praising You does me good.  

I will choose to find delight in your presence and set aside time every day to do that, even when I am too busy.  

Thank you, Lord, you never leave me where you found me. You never give up, even when I try to.  

In Jesus’ name, Amen 

Have You Been in Awe Lately? Psalm 118:19-29

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(Toddler on the beach.)

The tempo of her tiny feet steadily grew as we got closer and closer to the beach. Once she leaped off the wooden bridge, she collapsed onto her hands and knees and began to dig into the sand. The look on her face and her absolute joyful abandon cascaded over me. It is effortless to be ambushed by awe with my granddaughter. A three-year-old sees the world through a lens of wonder, and I love to share the view.  

Awe and wonder boost well-being.  

“Awe is awfully beneficial… Now they believe awe offers a range of benefits when practiced regularly, calming our nervous systems and relieving stress.” 

Michaeleen Doucleff, NPR News. 

Calming my nervous system is a beautiful remedy for anxiety plaguing so many of us over the last few years. What would it look like to nourish awe daily?  

It begins with curiosity and taking time to notice what is before me.

  • walking barefoot in the sand or on a freshly mowed lawn  
  • watching the waves crash onto a beach
  • forest bathing– walking in the woods 
  • observing the height and width of the trees, mountains, rock formations, waterfalls
  • listening to creation- turn off any electronics so you can hear the bird’s song, the insect’s buzz, and the wind blowing

In the second half of Psalm 118 (see my previous post to learn all about the first half https://antheakotlan.com/2022/04/27/where-do-i-look-for-certainty-in-difficult-times/ ), the psalmist points to opportunities to cultivate awe in my everyday life. God places wonder before me every single day.  

How often do I miss it?  

19 Open to me the gates of righteousness, that I may enter through them and give thanks to the Lord. 
20 This is the gate of the Lord; the righteous shall enter through it. 
21 I thank you that you have answered me and have become my salvation. 
 Psalm 118:19-21 ESV

Jesus is my key card access into God’s presence. He paid the debt I owed, so I have the freedom to come close to God. May I never grow weary of giving thanks for this! 

22 The stone that the builders rejected has become the cornerstone. 
23 This is the Lord's doing; it is marvelous in our eyes. 
Psalm 118:22-23 ESV

Jesus is my foundation. He stands by me and gives me strength in all situations. When was the last time I marveled at Jesus’ provision for me? He is not only the one who provides me with all I need. But, he does it marvelously, in an extraordinary manner.  

24 This is the day that the Lord has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it. 

25 Save us, we pray, O Lord! O Lord, we pray, give us success! 

26 Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord! We bless you from the house of the Lord. 
Psalm 118:24-26 ESV

The Lord makes my days, and each one is a personalized gift. Why would I take a single minute for granted? And yet I do. Does it mean that every single day I live will be perfect? Nope, they will each have moments of pain and celebration. How often am I entirely too focused on the disappointments and not the joyful surprises? 

God’s mercies are new every morning and announced with spectacular sunrises. At the end of the day, a sunset displays God’s majesty. I have 365 days every year to rejoice in.  

The Lord provides any success in my life. I could work hard all the days of my life and end up with nothing that lasts without the Lord.  

God blesses me in more ways than I can count. How can I possibly bless the Lord (vs 26)? We are to bless the Lord with our thanksgiving and praise. In moments of praise and worship, I often find awe and wonder. Blessing God blesses us.  

27 The Lord is God, and he has made his light to shine upon us. Bind the festal sacrifice with cords, 
    up to the horns of the altar! 

28 You are my God, and I will give thanks to you; you are my God; I will extol you. 

29 Oh give thanks to the Lord, for he is good; for his steadfast love endures forever! 
Psalm 118:27-29 ESV

In the darkest times of uncertainty, Jesus lights my way. God illuminates the way He wants me to go. Darkness, chaos, and confusion signal the work of the enemy of our souls. In those moments in the dark, I need to look up and seek Him.  

The Lord encourages us to feast and celebrate because it is good for us and honors Him. Times of joyful remembrance, events showcasing God’s gifts, and covenantal ceremonies give me an opportunity for awe and wonder. Wow, look what God has done!  

The next time you are at a wedding and witness the covenant before you, take a moment to be in awe. God is starting a new family to live for His glory. As a wedding guest, you are there on day one of this new adventure.  

Finally, going back to the beach scene with my granddaughter, seeing the world from a toddler’s perspective, teaches me about awe and wonder again. She notices so much I can miss. Her eyes and heart are wide open to see and feel the wonders of God’s creation. I may have quite a bit to learn from her.  

Prayer 

Lord, thank you for making all my days. Today is the day that the Lord has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it because it is good for me and honors you. Please open my eyes to see the awe and wonder You display on all of my days.  

In Jesus’ name, Amen. 

Where Do I Look for Certainty in Difficult Times? Psalm 118:1-18

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“Our new Constitution is now established, everything seems to promise it will be durable; but, in this world, nothing is certain except death and taxes.”  

Benjamin Franklin 

In March of 2020, even these two certainties became questionable. The traditional April 15 federal tax filing deadline was postponed until July 15. The Covid-19 death count was reported each and every day on the news, and the numbers appeared to be dramatically climbing. However, many questioned the truth of these reports. Things once so clear became mired in ongoing confusion.  

As citizens of the “now and not yet Kingdom of God,” we will continue to experience uncertainty and challenges on this side of Heaven.  

Psalm 118 shares a story of God’s steadfast love enduring forever. Human beings are hardwired for certainty. Anxiety runs rough-shod, stealing all peace of mind when interruptions arrive. Where do I look for certainty in difficult times? I have a tendency to research, make endless detailed plans, and complain to others.  

How about you?  

Our only solid certainty can be found in God.  

1 Oh give thanks to the Lord, for he is good; for his steadfast love endures forever! 

2 Let Israel say, "His steadfast love endures forever.” 

3 Let the house of Aaron say, “His steadfast love endures forever.” 

4 Let those who fear the Lord say, "His steadfast love endures forever.” 
Psalm 118:1-4 ESV

Why do we need to repeat, “His steadfast love endures forever”? When something in the Psalms is stated three times in a row and written as a command, it might be wise to consider taking the directive.  

The psalmist instructs the reader to practice this collectively and individually. Each person or group must say the truth aloud. It is not enough to simply be aware of the concept. It must be declared aloud so our hearts and minds can hear it, take it in, believe it. Clearly, we are a forgetful people.  

God’s resilient, recurring, and relentless love pursues believers. His love runs counter to any kind of love the world might offer. God’s love goes on after we die to the next generation. It always seeks to bring about the best for everyone involved no matter the cost.  

5 Out of my distress I called on the Lord; the Lord answered me and set me free. 

6 The Lord is on my side; I will not fear. What can man do to me? 

7 The Lord is on my side as my helper; I shall look in triumph on those who hate me. 
Psalm 118:5-7 ESV

What do I need to be set free from? Sometimes I allow myself to be caught up in the net of other people’s expectations.  

Do enemies stalk me in the dark of night? Do enemies attack me in my home?  At times the enemy who comes against me is my own inner critic, or my ability to consider all worst-case scenarios.

Remembering the location of the Lord serves as an antidote for fear. He is on my side. While I might not see Him or feel Him, He is still right there. Furthermore, the Lord understands. These verses remind me He hears me and answers me. He is my helper. Any strategy of man is limited by the presence of God. While suffering can and may occur, the Lord’s presence will sustain me.

He is on my side both present with me and always for me. Therefore, I can triumph over people and things in His divine mercy and not in my own strength. To look in triumph over whatever comes against me (people, situations, failures, wounds) reveals confidence in His ways and a transformed perspective. This I find remarkably challenging, and I often fail. Reading through psalms like this one, helps me to remember what is true and get back on track.  

8 It is better to take refuge in the Lord than to trust in man. 

9 It is better to take refuge in the Lord than to trust in princes. 
Psalm 118:8-9 ESV

Refuge taken with a friend or family member may fail. Refuge taken with a leader or government (prince) may disappoint. Only the Lord can provide adequate refuge all the time. Because He knows my enemies, He knows better how to protect me.  

How do I take refuge in the Lord?  

Taking refuge requires me to set aside time, and space, and to focus on Him alone. My natural tendency is to do the very opposite in an effort to escape pain by distraction or numbing out.  

 

10 All nations surrounded me; in the name of the LORD I cut them off! 

11 They surrounded me, surrounded me on every side; in the name of the LORD I cut them off! 

12 They surrounded me like bees; they went out like a fire among thorns in the name of the LORD I cut them off! 

13 I was pushed hard, so that I was falling, but the Lord helped me. 
Psalm 118:10-13 ESV

These verses point out how I can escape and cut off a toxic influence. God always makes a way of escape. This can only be done in the name of the Lord. Operating in my own strength will fail.  

14 The Lord is my strength and my song; he has become my salvation. 
 
15 Glad songs of salvation are in the tents of the righteous: “The right hand of the Lord does valiantly, 

16     the right hand of the Lord exalts, the right hand of the Lord does valiantly!” 
Psalm 118:14-16 ESV

Songs transform the atmosphere. Turn on some music in a room and watch the mood change. Music combined with praise provides a powerful weapon against my enemies.  

Where are these tents of the righteous located?  

Anywhere they are needed. The Lord provides portable places or sanctuaries where we can find forgiveness and declare the joy of our salvation. When we do, He joins us and refills us with the joy of His presence.  

17 I shall not die, but I shall live, and recount the deeds of the Lord.  
18 The Lord has disciplined me severely, but he has not given me over to death. 
Psalm 118: 17-18 ESV

This particular battle may be over and the rescue occurred. However, I am called to testify about what God has done. I am to recount His deeds to encourage and equip others for their own battles. As we live in the “now and not yet Kingdom of God,” battles and uncertainties will remain. However, we can finish as we began by praising God for His steadfast love enduring forever and declaring the joy of our salvation.  

Prayer 

Dear Lord,  

Today, I declare aloud, Your steadfast love endures forever. Thank You for remaining by my side even when I lose sight of You. I will choose to sing songs of praise and remember the joyous day of my salvation. I will run to take shelter in Your tents of righteousness. Before the sun sets, I will find one person to share a testimony of Your faithfulness to me. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.